I think to much.

This morning after I started on my daily routine my mind began to wondering all over the the place. I wanted to stay focused on the things I want to achieve today. This morning I read John 12. And in verse 28 I read that God spoke to the people in Jerusalem glorifying Jesus’s name. And For some reason this surprised me and the words compelled me to write this morning. I could not stay focused on the task in hand. I want to Glorify and give glory to God in thanks for the abundance of peace that I fell very day. With all of my faults and issues I’m surrounded with Gods grace and glory each day I open my eyes.

So, After reading I couldn’t decide which task to work on next. Their are so many things I have been putting off in my goals to succeed. ” that thought makes me smile”. Because I want to successes in what ever is placed in my path. I don’t want to give up but when thins get hard I cry my way through it and just start add more to my do learn list. I want to go the school but due to Covin-19 I’m scared.

We have been off the road more than 8 months and there are so many things I should have achieved by now, in my mind. But I have allowed my disability to learn the in’s and out’s of photography to stop me from accomplishing things that I should have done.

So last week I have started back on my Udemy online Ps classes along with learning to use audible books on social media. These learning tools have been wonderful on one hand, while my other hand is growing lips, teeth and tough. These tools can be to complex at times without giving you all the info that’s needed to grow and succeed. And then their are some things that I just wont do cant do and don’t have the capital(money) to do it . So I ask “Lord please guide me through all this mess and help get me to that perfect photo I’m trying to create”

In the start of this endeavor I allowed my frustration with my learning ability, or lack their of, to stop me from creating. But my mind would still be on creating things. I have created some beautiful things in my mind. I feel good about using the gift God gave me to Glorify his name through the words of life’s lessons. Words that I use daily for myself and with other. Words that I believe come to me though Gods purpose and plan at any given moment.

Example: My first 3 years on the road where hell. I was miserable all the time for one reason or the other. I continuously allowed myself to be unhappy. One day out out of the clear blue ski I started saying to myself” Stay Positive Stay Focused Stay Prayerful. I stopped focusing on the on all the negative things happening around me that was keeping me down. Those 6 words became a daily chant and and now my family carries the same chant thru out there day with them. I’ve even printed it on my mask.